Menjemput bidadari

Assalamualaikum wbt,

It's been a while since I posted anything. Wanna share a song. I found this song earlier this year. It motivated me to become a bidadari :) who will, with someone destined for her, be hand in hand working towards Allah's pleasure, shoulder to shoulder, fighting for Allah's cause. In that while before the time comes, prepare yourself : to be a flower, to be the backbone, to be the healer, to be a nurturer, and to be a friend, who should be an asset for his da'wah and who should be one who would motivate him to want jannah more. InsyaAllah.

Sounds hard? It is. And I'm not even anywhere close yet. :(
So, please, do pray for me. May Allah save me & you.

p/s: am studying for a big test for therapy, but couldn't focus. Hence, the out-of-the-blue post and video about bidadari.

Whas is mean tha' im embra'cin islam?? Parte I

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

Dalam fokus x fokus menyertai syura, aku merevise ilmu yang bakal dikongsi malam ni -ni ar salah satu kelebihan and bestnya syura berhijab, pompuan kan leh multitasking, why not? ehehehe...---patu tiba2 kantoi ngan bos, erkp  =_=".

Syura yang mengambil masa kurang lebih 2 jam berakhir pukul 6. Dasss~! seusainya syura aku pecut dgan velocity pecutnya seekor kura-kura utk kembali ke rumah dan bersiap sedia utk agenda malam pula (image memakai topeng keluangman dan meletakkan satu kaki dia atas sebiji batu besar sementara ombak2 besar mnjadi background bermain di fikiran)

                                           How fast does a turtle run?

Yup, agenda malam ini yang mengecutkan perut, mengembangkan hidung, melajukan heartbeat ke tahap high but normal....aku bakal berkongsi pemahaman dalam gabungan bulatan-bulatan riang yang menghasilkan bulatan besar yang riang lagi gumbira.

Whas is mean tha' im embra'cin islam??
(baca dalam slang brit english, ditafsirkan sebagai : Apa ertinya saya menganut Islam?) - buku hasil penulisan Fathi Yakan.

Who? Why? What for? Say whaaattt???

Kawan-kawan yang terspark minatnya tapi x tbyang dek akal whats this all about...
buku ni membincangkan sifat2 penting yang wajib ada pada seseorang tu utk membolehkan that person become a muslim dalam erti kata sebenar.


A muslim is what a muslim does.

To make every inch of me a muslim, I need to make every little thread and knot of my life muslim.

1. << Saya mestilah muslim dari sudut AQIDAH.>>

**al-Aqeedah linguistically is derived from the term aqada. In Arabic, one states, "Aqada the rope" when the rope is tied firmly. And,"Aqada the sale" or "He settled the sale" when the person ratifies and contracts a sale or agreement. If one says, "Aqadtu such and such", it means his heart is firm upon such and such. Therefore, al-aqidah or al-itiqad according to the scholars of Islam is: The firm creed that one's heart is fixed upon without any wavering or doubt. It excludes any supposition, doubt or suspicion.
              
First and foremost, I have to be a muslim in what I believe. Untuk menjadi muslim dari sudut aqidah, aku beriman bahawa Allah pencipta alam ni tanpa bantuan sesiapapon dan Allah x cipta seluruh alam dan kejadian ni secara sia2 dan tanpa tujuan, hatta dari sekecik2 habuk hingga sepanjang2 kuku kaki...xda yang sia-sia ! ---> mustahil utk Tuhan Yang Maha Sempurna dan Maha Bijaksana mencipta sesuatu yang sia-sia, semuanya ada tujuan, kegunaan atau hikmahnya. Kalau rasa2 cam "so, apa guna piranha?? makan orang?? wat org develop regional hydrophobia yg tertakluk pada sungai amazon shja??" lu fikir sendiri la...benda basic science dak darjah 4 pon leh fikir...get this, utk setiap penciptaan, at least ONE thing is for sure, cam skema jawapan je utk setiap satu, setiap penciptaan tu membawa kita berfikir tentang kehebatan ciptaan itu, ketakjuban penciptaannya, dan kesempurnaan dan kebijaksanaan Penciptanya. right right?

Saya mestilah beriman yang Allah utus Rasul-rasul dan diturunkan kitab-kitab untuk mengajar manusia supaya mengenali Allah. Orang Melayu kata: tak kenal maka tak cinta, ye dop?

Saya juga mestilah beriman bahawa matlamat penciptaan insan adalah mengenali Allah. Remember Az-Zariyat 56? " Maka tidak Aku jadikan Jin dan manusia melainkan untuk beribadah kepadaKu."

Saya mestilah mengabdikan diri diri kepada Allah dan hanya kepada Allah. To Him and only Him. Tanpa mneyekutukan dengan yang lain. Nope, with no one else. Con nessuno. Na walang isa. Hи с кем. Met niemand. No discussion. A determinant fullstop and a dramatic exclamation mark. In Islam, this is the MOST important thing to hold on to. 

Saya meyakini bahawa ganjaran untuk mukmin yang taat adalah syurga dan balasan utnuk yang kafir adalah neraka.

Saya mestilah takut hanya kepadaNya, sentiasa mengingatiNya dan berzikir menyebut namaNya ( ayat yang dirasakan sangat best: diam saya itu adalah dalam keadaan berzikir, apabila bercakap adalah kerana berzikir),
menyintai Allah dengan sebenar-benar cinta dan bertawakal sepenuhnya kepada Allah dalam setiap keadaan [hadis 19].

Current time 2:44 am...to be continued.......

I'm listening to Coldplay's Paradise cover by Tanner Patrick.

A song reminiscing the feeling of being a little girl, it brings me way back, when I used to seek my father's protection from anything scary, hairy, or simply if it gives an dark evil aura, when I used to cook for my parents and seeing them smile eating my half-cooked dish made me content, when my brother and I used to camp inside the house, when I used to kiss my baby brothers and baby sister cheeks, clean their diapers, watch over them and wondering if they would remember all that and respect and appreciate what I did when they grew up...doesn't sound so little anymore, right?

Reminiscent of the past I left very far behind, the song searches me, of who I am now, of what I am scared of now, of whom I seek protection from now, of what makes me contented now, of the innocence and naivety that I keep in me, which I refuse to let go and the reality of life's harshness pulling it away.

I remember being little, but I scarcely remember being young. I have always been mature, calling the shots, keeping everyone happy, taking responsibilty over things and mending everyone's hearts since I can remember.

Now, I continue to work. As tiring as it is, as draining as it is, it's different. Working now is different. Living is different. I work for a purpose. I live for a purpose.
To feel loved.
Yeah, I guess that's what it is.
To feel loved.

Of all the people around me, everyone's either grateful that I'm mature in thinking and taking decisions, that they can trust me with responsibilities, thankful that I am there to mend people's hearts, thankful that I listen  when they pour their pain and hurt out, that I am there when no one was there for them,branding me with expectations that they know I feel obliged to fulfill...

Everyone's grateful, thankful, expectant...and yet no one bothers to see the little girl who is still afraid, who's looking for someone whom she could seek for protection, who feels that no one saw her efforts, who feels insecure with her place int he world because she feels like people would leave her one day when they found her beneficial no more.

And so, I went on a quest. And now I work. And I live. To feel loved.
By Him, who knows my fear and my insecurities.
By Him, whom I can always seek for protection.
By Him, who sees not what I can do, but what I am trying to do.
By Him, who advices me when I'm stuck, who consoles me when I'm sad, who listens to my pain, who surprises me with gifts beyond my imagination and expectations.
By Him, who is grateful when I take even a step towards Him.

And now I work. And now I live. So that I can meet Him in Paradise.

:) A russian poem I wrote when I was stressed out studying therapy during 3rd year

Я улыбаюсь, ты улыбаешься

 когда мы улыбаемся, жизнь становится ярче

днем есть солнце, ночью есть луна

 это и многое другое делают жизнь красивее

когда вы делаете доброе дело

вы будете получать в десять раз больше

в Коране все это написано

 мои дорогие, вы помните?

то не бойтесь дать немного и дать немного больше

потому что, когда мы даем, жизнь становится значимее.